Definately, my baby is clever enough to do this when I insist on deleting the one before his post. In 2 days time, it marks our 15mths tgether & definately, I'm not gonna be like this when we celebrate later on the Wednesday. I sense something wrong with the way I am this few days. And baby, pls don't ask me to delete this post again because I really think this is true enough. Well no worries actually, you can post another sweet stuffs after mine. So what was I talking about, me lately right? I tend to be like a future QC towards boyfie & somehow,im freaking out. I never was like this before. I never wanna stop him from doing anything & its never my intention to just speak up! But for the matter of fact, I never would wanna stop him from doing things I don't really like but ok-ok with it. I believed in everyones' freedom that I shudnt be bothering about and afterall, I've always been fine with anything but somehow, this few days I'm a little sensitive and so tensed up. Another thing about me, I don't like to request anything to my like and asked for anything I would want to own, especially from my own boyfren. I got this thing called scared when I wanna talked and asked for something. I know it sounded like I'm making up story cos to my frens eyes, aku mukernyer tak tau malu. -_- Like I say, its only towards my byfren. :) But baby keep saying, I'm not what I think I am and I'm not being a QC towards him. I somehow felt more of guilt then relief. Bie, I'm so sorry if the planned you already had somehow turned out different due to my selfish-ness. I promise and I hope I can do this, by not stopping you in anything. If its fine for you, it be fine on me.
And replying to what you posted down here. I swear I was really happy and touched.I don't mind in anything you want me to do or be like. Its not that, I'm doing everything to your say. Its just that, you know what you expect from me and I know everything you asked me to do, is the best for me. I just love it when you're jelous and angry. It shows me how much you care & how much I mean to you. But don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want you to feel such way too and be paranoid. I love you so much & I too don't mind you wanna post anything down here. Atleast, instead of reading my own words which bore me, your words lighten up my blog. Do it often! :)
And I haven been saying this to you and somehow, its not complete when I missed out this for a day. I love you so much and like whatever it takes for me to stick through with you, I will. Be it sometimes its a really rough time for us, we made it through, don't we? I'm still keeping my promised to you, every single one of it. I miss you so much that I can't wait for Wednesday! And I'm sorry I gave you a cold shoulder just now, I just want you to read this first. hehe. And last thing, my night wasn't the same, you're not online to chat with me. How boring!
Before I end my long post, MAZNI BTE MAHAT! Listen up, I donnoe what the hell you're doing there in KL but I can't seem to get you through the phone and its friggin turning me mad! I've told Abg Shah about the thingy-thingy and I hope you read this and think of somthing. You're such an ass! Atleast ring me up and tell what's your plan and I'll get things work over here! You're left with 2 weeks kakak oi!
Gdnite lovelies.
I love boyfren, so much.
Sunday, October 19, 2008,11:25 PM |
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